Tangent proof list of topics for tonight:
BEING SINGLE
So far in my life, a majority of my life has been a season of singleness, with one or two short segments not fitting into that category. Valentines day has recently passed I have found that I am finding it harder and harder to be content during this time. Recently I have had a few friends begin new relationships, and instead of feeling joy for them my first reaction was one of loneliness, and hurt.
Tonight as I was reflecting on this I began to realize the absurdity of these feelings, first because as stated before a majority of my life has been spent single, and a majority of that single time was enjoyed without a worry or a care about being single. And second, in Jesus I should be satisfied. I seem to be relying on Him in all other areas, but not allowing Him to be the provider of my love and the sustainer of my affections. Instead I am ignoring the most important source of affection (God) and reaching out to those around me whom are either rejecting me in that way, or just dear friends sharing their affection as friends. My desperation for love has me looking upon those friendships for more, and opening spaces where I could ruin such wonderful friendships, or step into sinful patterns.
Tonight as I was reflecting on this I began to realize the absurdity of these feelings, first because as stated before a majority of my life has been spent single, and a majority of that single time was enjoyed without a worry or a care about being single. And second, in Jesus I should be satisfied. I seem to be relying on Him in all other areas, but not allowing Him to be the provider of my love and the sustainer of my affections. Instead I am ignoring the most important source of affection (God) and reaching out to those around me whom are either rejecting me in that way, or just dear friends sharing their affection as friends. My desperation for love has me looking upon those friendships for more, and opening spaces where I could ruin such wonderful friendships, or step into sinful patterns.
As a Christian I should be running away from the things that are tempting me towards sin not tiptoeing closer and closer to the line.
So how do I switch my view to allow myself to see and understand God's great love for me?
I'll look at this tomorrow by taking my first step and defining what love is..... which of course is found in 1 Corinthians 12:4-8, a verse that I will let you mull over tonight......
1 Corinthians 12:4-8
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8 Love never fails.
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